I am pretty well hungover.

Yesterday was my birthday. I went out for the first time in two weeks. I had a blast, but I remember why I haven't been going out.

I am making some promises to myself and to others, and thought that maybe I should put them out in the open to hold myself accountable.

So - here goes nothing:

I promise that I am going to learn to love myself. I have serious self-confidence issues, and it takes over my life at times. I'm working on it. I really am.

I promise that you, Mason Hargett, will always be my number one. I promise this because I love you. I promise to try to quit being such an overemotional female who gets her feelings hurt all the damn time.

I promise to do something great with my life....eventially (maybe I should promise to learn how to spell). In keeping this promise I also promise to stop getting down and out just because I am still waiting tables. I work hard and am responsible. There is nothing bad about that.

I can't stop thinking about my boyfriend. I love him. I love his smell, and his smile, and his laugh, and those ugly shorts that he bought at Savers and wears all the time. I am just pretty much head over heels for this boy.

Wow.

I promise to try not to talk about my awesome boyfriend all the time.

I promise to return Bendy's Nintendo even though she has a WII now and probably doesn't care about a stupid Nintendo.

I promise to be more crafty.

Cross my heart, and hope to die.

man, its hot out.

It's pretty hot, pretty early.

I made my boyfriend tack some curtains over the windows. It looks tacky, but will have to do until I can find exactly the right curtains for our bedroom. I can't believe I am posting things about curtains on a blog.

Anna told me yesterday, "I don't even know you anymore", in a mocking tone of course, but I am acting a bit oddly I think.

I haven't really been doing well with my workout regime. The class I was attending was awesome, but the mental stimulation not so much. So now I am trying to teach myself how to have some self control and get my lazy butt outta bed in the a.m. and get my workout on. If I don't do it early in the morning I won't do it at all. Per today's plan.

My pup weighs 25lbs, and I touched a Zebra. I fed a Zebra. It was pretty awesome.

I moved into a quaint little duplex with this boy I feel in love with last fall, and we are pretty happy. There were a few times where I thought, "this is probably not a good idea", and then I manned up and confronted the situation. I put my big girl pants on, and they fit just fine.

I am working three jobs for many reasons, and I remind myself everyday that I am working myself this hard now so that in a few years I won't have too push myself so hard. I am making a huge dent in the payoff department of my debt and it feels so good!

I am also thinking about taking private French lessons starting in January, but I am not sure still. I feel I need to focus on Spanish.

Also, I watched my boyfriend ice some bros Monday, and it was freaking hilarious!

xx
brit.

women be shopping

It's March 1st, 2010.

And man oh man do I have some lists for you. I haven't been blogging much, and by much I mean since December, because one thing on my list of things accomplished isn't getting my laptop fixed. Actually, I probably never will.

But I really really wanna give you a list of things that I have done:

1. Graduate School - I have decided that I will not be going to UALR for Graduate school, or for any other schooling for that matter. I have entered into my "professional" life with absolutely no idea what is going on. Thank goodness I have some friends that are here to help guide me.

Also, regarding graduate school - I am probably not going to follow up on either of my bacherlor's degrees. I have been having a huge ethical dilemna regarding my anthropology studies. I am afraid that my compassion will get in the way of being the unbiased observer. I don't want to observe and keep my mouth shut about things I don't agree with, and therefore I just don't think that I would make a good anthropologist. I wish I would've figured this out a last year.

Regarding French - well I was never really that good at it. I still study in my free time and am going to start reading some French short stories to keep myself in the now, but I can't like anymore. I sucked with Les Francais. I am still more comfortable speaking Spanish than French.

Nevermore, cried the Raven....

At least I'm still practicing.

So, basically, I am just saying...I have no clue what I am going to do for the rest of my life....and right now I'm okay with that.

Which leads us up to my next number.....

2. I went to a dance party on top of a roof of this bar that my friends and I frequent and I met this really cute tall skinny boy who had great moves....

and ....

I fell in L-O-V-E.

Yup, I am now in a relationship and couldn't be happier. I am the Charlotte of the group, and I swear if he ever breaks up with me....

I'll find him.

:)

3. I've been working on my physical and mental fitness and man does it feel good. I am going to try and keep many updates of this bullet point on here as possible. I have signed up with a debt consolidator to get rid of my nasty credit card/doctors bill, and have been going to a workout class three days a week.

I'm getting ripped yo.

Also, I am buying a Schwinn. A sundress. And a derby day hat.

I'm pretty excited.

xx

brit.