shut your mouth....and open your eyes.

There are times in my life when I wish that I was a little stronger, a little better at seeing through things as opposed to gazing at them with eyes full of wonder.

I remember when I went to Paris, France. I was 21 years old, and in complete disarray. This remembrance is focused on my trip to the Louvre. Le Louvre is intense. It is huge. It cannot be properly appreciated in 1 day. Because of this, my friend Liz and I each picked out a personal favorite, the Mona Lisa ( I mean it was DaVinci for Christ sake) and a room. My personal choice was "The Raft of The Medusa" by Gericault.

The painting is the autobiography for people lost and not searced for. It is real. it was a political outcry for reform. Research it. Learn about it.



This painting was/is everything I could ask for in a piece of art. It is historical, beautiful, symbolic, and factual. It was something I didn't expect...HUGE! It was so much more than I expected!! The "Mona Lisa" was comparable to a piece of copy paper, but this took up an entire wall. I stared, mesmerized, until my time passed.

This "mesmirization" is my down fall. I find things and love them. I want to care for them, and make their world as beautiful as I see mine. I want you to soak up all that I see, and take advantage of the right things. I want you to understand why I think you are beautiful, brilliant, charming, and mesmerizing to me.

LOOK AT THE PAINTING. It is full of despair, longing, famine, and death. Why would I want you to think it is lovely? Why would I want you to understand why I think it is?

Simply said, I want you to look deeper than the paint on the canvas. I want you to see that it is real. It is suffering. It is survival. It is the lives being lead, and the lives we will lead. It is a person reaching out for the people that surround him - being a voice for those that won't be heard.

It is someone who cares, loves, and becomes mesmerized.




It is understanding, and compromise.

I want someone to understand my perspective, and know that I don't care if we agree. I want you to look at it from the outside in and the inside out. Don't take adavantage of it.

Look at it.
Appreciate it.
Understand it without judging.

When this happens...
Maybe we could all feel better in the morning.


xx.
brit.

i betchya i can....or at least i'll try

I haven't been posting much...
My computer is jacked. Technology repels me.
I have been working non-stop since my 24th birthday...(which was amazing by the way), and haven't made the time until tonight to attempt to fix the problem. The problem still isn't fixed but for now I can blog my heart out and catch up on my hulu subscriptions.

Lame, Yes. Do I care? No.

There is this bar in my town, and if you are from Little Rock and are in any way aware of your surroundings you know it. It goes by the name Pizza D'Action, and well I love that place. The people there treat you like family not a $1 tip, they music is great, and you will always find someone to talk to (sanity not guranteed).

Well The D had some technical difficulties that have since been repaired, and my friends and I all celebrated at our much missed huge table (it spans the length of the bar), played dominoes, and drank. Followed by a few house visits and the Midtown closedown....

Why tell you about my mundane night, you ask? It wasn't so much the night of mayhem, but the realization that followed....I DRINK TO MUCH!

My name is Britany Simmons and I drink to DAMN MUCH! I gurantee you that the majority of my money is spent on bills and booze...that isn't a combo I am proud of. So I am challenging myself....No going out and getting trashed for a month. No drinking period. I can't stop once I start. One glass of wine with dinner and I am down for the count.

So I am going to still go out and see my shows, and still go kick Mark's butt at Dominoes, and still sit on the patio with Bendy and Katie and still have a cup in my hand...but I am gonna make it wat-ah!

Oh and hey....I really think I can do it. Saturday night at The Tavern will be the test, as I plan on dancing wildly with my ladies and smiling a lot...

More tomorrow as my computer works. I have much to tell you.

xx
brit.